Classes - 46

I got a pleasant surprise. Somehow I lost count of my classes and I am not behind! Whohoo! I am right on track again.

Classes 42 & 43 - Stubby McStuberson

It's official: I have short, stubby little arms. I'm OK with that.

Last night I went to the 8 and this morning I went to the 6:15. The 8 was wonderful. It was really hot but I felt super focused. The instructor even told me I was doing well during my standing bow pose. I think that pose is my favorite. It is the easiest to see my progress and it feels very yoga-like. I have also decided triangle pose is my least favorite. Such is life.

Starting now I am not going to write as much. I am running out of stuff to say. Maybe I am not reflecting enough but I am kinda enjoying just going, breathing and being there. This has been quite a journey and I think I have gotten exactly what I needed. I am excited to complete the 60 day challenge but at the same time I already feel pretty accomplished and proud of myself.

Class 41

It is becoming harder to wake up early to get to class. This morning I flopped out of bed and somehow managed to make it to class but it was as if I was in a fog the entire class. I am doing a double today to hopefully my pm class will be a bit better. I took a couple days off so I am once again three days behind. I am going to do a double today, Saturday and one next week to catch up. I made the unfortunate mistake of weighing myself. I have gained weight, which sucks. I think I may be bloated but I doubt that accounts for all of it. I find it hard to eat "light" while doing all this yoga. I craze meat a lot. I need to find a nutritional balance and I think I will feel a bit better.

I think I might start standing in the front of the room, maybe in a corner. I am certainly not the person to have beginners look at but at the same time, I am getting easily distracted by people in front of me lately. I wonder if it will be easier for me to focus if it is just me and the mirror.

Day 40 :-)

So I continue to feel amazing after class but during class I have really been struggling. I sat out a couple of postures in the floor series today. I am really beginning to be able to tell exactly what the temperature is in the room. I am good up until about 102. After that, its a wrap. A lot of the teachers leave the temperature around 100, which I love but when they crank it up the temperature it is actually supposed to be, I feel myself fading. But I made it through and am 66% way through my challenge.

I saw an old friend of a friend today in class. It was a great surprise but the look on her face when I told her what I am doing made me realize how bizarre it really is. Amazing for me, but pretty over the top for most people. I forgot about that.

I have also turned into a snob. I hate it when new people are next to me. This girl literally fell on my towel today during the standing bow pose. She was jerking all over the place because her knee wasn't locked and literally fell into me. It was so annoying. And then during the floor series she kept looking in the wrong direction so we would get awkward eye contact. I don't know why it is so hard to just listen to the intructor for new people. I was irritated. It showed me how far I have to go in the calming of my mind. That sort of distraction is a just a challenge and I need to learn how to focus on myself and push through it.

I felt so good about my body today. I just felt comfortable. It is such a new, exciting feeling of self-discovery. I even feel more confident wearing different kinds of clothing not just to yoga. Yoga is such a safe space, I could literally wear a bikini and nobody would care. But I find myself looking for sexier clothes to go out in. I may even buy a sleeveless shirt! Gasp.

Day 37, 38 & 39

Thats right - I did a triple! My back was bothering me yesterday so I didn't go to the Saturday 5pm but I didn't want to get off schedule so I went to the 9am and 11am, took a fabulous nap and then went to the 5pm. The 11am was rough but I made it through and now I only have one more double to do and I will be all caught up. I just really don't like the feeling of being behind. If anything, I want to be ahead. Clearly, moderation is not my forte.